Fly Feather Fly..

I don't know how should I tell my feelings..
Right now I'm so depressed and can't concentrate studying..
I told my friends about my feelings but it wasn't enough to hold this..
Then I feel the need to tell just anyone I know.
Probably it will relieve me from all these pain..
coz I really in need to release these feelings and do well on my midterms this week.

I had a girlfriend..
We've been together for 4 years with 2 and a half years long distance.

On February 24,
I dreamt about myself having all sorts of magics, living in a big mansion with a flat rooftop.
I had my girlfriend there..
Then one day I tried to teach her how to fly on the rooftop..
At first, she can't fly...
I kept trying to teach her..
accompanying her to practice day by day..
until one day, she can fly by herself..

at 8 am the morning after the dream..
Rang Rang Rang...
My new iPhone that I just bought rang at exactly 8 am, my favorite number..
It was her..
We talked for a while and had some conversations..
the last topic was about our relationship..
she said she can't concentrate with her study..
this relationship is killing her..
and we both decided to break up officially..
and That's how it ended..
She flied away..
Just like how I taught her in my dream, she flied away..

The broke up was ok for me,
For the purpose of our happiness and our study..
I was hoping that she could concentrate more on her study..
But...

2 days after we officially broke up, february 26..
I was surprised..
She got engaged with someone that no one knows where he is from..
I never knew him,
almost all of my friends and her friends never know him,
what was that for?
Is that especially for me?
thank you..
i felt shocked..confused..angry..

insulted..pissed off..and sad..
It's not my business anymore..
but I just..
I want her to get the best guy, knowing that I'm not able to relieve her loneliness..
and not a quick, easy, merry go round relationship like that..

and so... she flied away..far away from my mansion..
never know where she is..where she's about to go.. and where she's about to land..
but I always hope..that she will land on a safe ground...
pray that the nature would keep her safe..
coz she's my buddy and my trustful one, for which I gave her my magic wand to fly..


Dustin..